Sometimes a song says it better than we can…
Matthew 14:28-31 (NIV) — “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
(And yet, I have had enormous faith, made huge sacrifices and stepped out in obedience repeatedly, Lord, even when I didn’t want to and in many ways I didn’t want to…and for so long…why have you not rescued me from these storms and this drowning which are a result of that faith? You still have me and always will, but I have no choice but to start swimming to the surface myself and see what can be recovered of my scattered life…it changes everything, but I can no longer take in more water to my lungs. Trying to understand this part of Your plan…hoping someday I will. Will I see Your face again in the midst of circumstances that have made it impossible to stay where I’ve been led? Or will the storms just increase? Is this the place You needed me to reach so that You could move me yet again?)
